(This post was somewhat inspired by the ‘Moving Past The Barbed Wires’ vent)
“I hate this job. I’m quitting. I can’t stand these people. This is so annoying. I could be doing something much better than this shit.”
All of those thoughts have run through our minds at one point. It’s natural to have those feelings when you have a job making Just Over Broke wages. I know a fact that I’m not the only person that goes through this. Let’s look at the scenario: Post graduate student who’s eager and anxious to tackle the world head first in the field of their choice, but of course since the system locks us in to not give us further training to actually find a job in our fields, it all comes back down to the theory of: “it’s not what you know, it’s who you know.” Then we think to ourselves and get mad like “why the entire fuck did I go to university/college for X amount of years for? To push a fuckin’ Rav-4? (Thank you Kanye)
It’s frustrating to know that we couldn’t get opportunities right off the bat since we worked our asses off for that very purpose, but nope, nothing. What did we get handed: A piece of paper, a pat on the back, and, “congratulations & good luck.” No job. No career starter, nothing. Is it worth it? Of course not, and it’s the most frustrating feeling in the world, but what can we do? Either deal with it, or do something about it. That’s all there is.
There are a lot of people who believe that you don’t need education to help you get far ahead in life. Not everyone can just drop out of high school or college to become something big like Bill Gates & Jay-Z who said “graduated at the MOMA, and I did all of this without a diploma.” We don’t all have that drive, fire & burning desire that it takes to be a billionaire. Most of us have it in us, and a lot of us don’t, well, not true. We ALL have it in us, but fewer people have the ability to actually harness & tap into that nth degree and go beyond exemplary expectations.
Now how does all of this come back to a job, you may ask (or not, whatever)? I’ve been thinking a lot about life (as I always do) and pretty much where I’m at right now. The old adage is “you have to tough it out until something good comes along,” but honestly, I feel like I’ve sacrificed enough years in regards to a lot of summers, spring breaks, and honestly I’ve only known work & school since I was 16 years old, but when it comes to RETAIL, that’s like modern-day slavery.
Ok…let me put that into context that doesn’t get people on edge. Working just above minimum wage less than 40 hours a week (even for full-time workers) is not going to help me move out into an area that I want to, it’s not going to give me the ability to actually do better things in life. That’s not the life I want, and working 2 retail jobs? No thank you. I know too many people who work 2 jobs just to pay rent and have nothing left over; for what reason? What is that? No one should have to live that life. I get that people have circumstances, bills, and this/that & the other, but that’s not my forte. One of my good friends works 3 jobs and had full-time school….I couldn’t do that. If I didn’t have anything else going for me (not saying that my friend doesn’t), but no, that would be detrimental to my health, and I’m too young for all of that.
I get that you have to sacrifice now to reap the rewards later, but my main point is, I’d rather sacrifice hours of my time doing something that’s related to the damn field I gave the Ontario Government money to teach me about. I’m paying off these people for the next 9 years off of what….retail money? That’s not what’s on my diploma hanging on my wall; not at all. I wouldn’t have gone to college if that was going to be the case. I’m bigger than where I’m at right now. I’m grateful that I have this job, but there’s a point where everyone is just like “okay, I need change.” I’ve been feeling for that change for the past 2 years, and I’m aware that I’m still young, and I have a lot more life to live, but wasting away hours in retail (or if you work in an office building) is NOT making life any more enjoyable that how I want it to be, to be completely honest.
Let’s look at this scenario: I quit my job, then what? Luckily, I have an actual talent that I can make work for me. There are many ways to develop income (legally…let me put that there to avoid confusion). I’m talented enough that I can get by, but to make it steady, that’s the harder part. Networking is the biggest key to getting ahead in life, that’s what I learned in college without being really coached on that. When your network grows, then the people around you grow, and so do your contacts and you’ll never know where you’ll end up 6 months from now or even a year from now.
The urge to just not show up for work, or stay on the train past my stop where I have to get off has become harder and harder ever since I went back from vacation. It’s something that I’ve known would happen, but I know that I need the money. If I got fired right now, I wouldn’t be mad, I wouldn’t even care. You may look at me like “well, you’re not making money,” well, I just explained what I would do to compensate for that. It’s all about having a plan. If you don’t have an idea of what you want to do or even how you think you’ll get there despite all of the circumstances, you need to think about that. As I’ve stated in past vents, people are comfortable with where they’re at, and they’re happy with their mediocre health benefits and their regularly scheduled lunches, and the same boring conversations about how they make their salads or which direction they take going home from work. Honestly, I’m tired of it. I need a new crowd, because something has to change. It’s natural, and my mother always told me, “When you feel the need to go, then it’s time. Your mind knows you better than you know yourself.” She’s not lying about that. Think about your life today; think about where you want your life next year. Will this job help you get there? Mine won’t.
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